Cat got your tongue?

So it’s 11:33am and I’m still in bed. I don’t want to physically speak today. I heard my boy screaming at 7:30am and jumped out of bed to go and get him, but he’s at his dads. Now. I can’t move. My stomach is rumbling, my mouth is dry. Why won’t my body move? I […]

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WTF Is Wrong With You!?

So, after getting some feedback earlier which I didn’t expect at all…! (Thank You!) I thought I’d explain in a bit more detail what BPD actually is; It’s an emotional/behavioural Disorder. It causes manic episodes (mania/depression). It’s an irrational fear of abandonment. Is highly correlated with substance misuse. It’s triggered by anything, and everything When […]

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Where Do I Start…?

So. Everyone seems to be publicly expressing how they feel these days. So I thought why not. I am 26, have a little boy, he’s two and an absolute handful. I guess I should start by explaining why I started this. To stop self harming. Is the long and short of it. I have Emotionally […]

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Follow the Yellow Brick Road…

Well… I’m definitely not in Kansas anymore! Firstly, apologies for the lack of blogging. With Christmas and New Year and the obvious “New year, new me” approach. Life’s kind of swept me away with it. That and the fact that the life of a single mum seems neither interesting or worth reading about, but I’m […]

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Trying to cope when I can’t…

I am a raging ball of anger. I’m going through the motions. Sadness, check. Self pity, check. Now I’m at anger. I’m angry at what’s happened. I’m angry at what’s been said. I’m angry at myself for letting myself get hurt and I’m angry at myself for hurting other people. So in an attempt to […]

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When the seed is planted…

So. I thought I was starting to get there. I really thought after a week of fighting it, I woke up yesterday morning in an okay mood. I’m still getting the nausea, and the blurred vision. But I was starting to be able to handle it. I was getting control back. I had my emotions […]

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“You can trust me…”

No. No you can’t. If anyone around you feels like they need to reassure you that you can confide in them. 99.9% of the time you cannot. I’ve lost count of the amount of times that someone has said to me I can trust them, I’ve then told them something in complete confidence and before […]

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